Won’t Be Contained

I don’t have the usual things A husband or wife Kids A regular job or some kind of inheritance A drive for security. I have fear But it won’t drive me to keep doing Something I hate Or to stay at a job that dries my soul. In those places, there’s only the steel fences…

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Love The Life We've Got

There is so much to be said for cycles. For knowing that there are cycles. For knowing that the pain always subsides, eventually. So, today, none of the darkness has manacled me. Skies are blue with cooling autumn weather ahead. Potential is here. Love is present. I’ve been reflecting lately on how powerful it can…

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Slow Rejuvenation

Waking up today I didn’t feel like I weighed a thousand pounds. Instead, I felt energy slowly returning to my body and heart. The love and the light are finding their way into me. Rejuvenating me. Being willing to walk through the darkness and grief and anger and sadness, into it fully, to wait there…

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Friendship Lessons

Today is another day. Sometimes when I wake up, I am grateful to be alive. Excited for what will come in the hours ahead. Other times (like this morning), I lie in the gray light and wonder why I feel like I weigh 1,000 pounds. I’ve made a commitment (to myself) to write honestly about…

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Jake, My Beloved Dog

Yesterday, August 23, 2018, right around 6 PM EST, one of the most wonderful dogs ever born left this world. Jake came to me in summer 2003, just over 15 years ago, after my dad died of cancer and my dog, Buddy, was hit by a car and killed that same night. The grief of…

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Calm After The Storm

UPDATE April 17, 2020: I wrote this a few years ago, after a very difficult time for me, that some of you may have witnessed. It is sitting here in my blog as a “private” post which means (I think) that no one can see it except for me. I am going to make it…

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I Can't Take Down The Christmas Tree

I can’t take down the Christmas tree. I’m not sure what that’s all about, but I just can’t bring myself to take it down. I love seeing it when I come home and I love how it lights up the room in the morning before dawn and at night while I’m puttering about the house. And…

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I have no poems of light

I have no poems of light. I have only poems of surrendering to darkness. This world tells us “fight the darkness.” But I have a different message. Surrender to suffering and allow your journey to REALLY begin. Drop “affirmation” and “attraction” into the trash can. Trust the Path, live the life you’ve got. No matter…

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